So do I go away to college or not? I really felt like God was saying, Stay Home. But all the odds were againt this decision. The hardest part would be to tell my mom. I thought she might understand. One day I casually asked her, "Mom, what would you think if I didn't go away to college?" She basically exploded. After she calmed down, she decided that that it would be Ok if I stayed home and went to college as long as I paid for it. Hmm..Free college or not. Now it was a REALLY hard decision. I fasted. I prayed and still felt like I shouldn't go. I was really only 18 and had not made up what I wanted to do with my life. How could I make such a huge decision? I talked with Pastor Jeff Brown, Maritsa, my friends.. they all affirmed that I should stay. So I did.
My heart and my mind really wanted to do what my mom and dad wanted. I really wanted to please them, to make them proud. But I went against them. It was the hardest decision in my life so far.
I enrolled in the education department at Cleveland State. The only trouble was I didn't want to waste money on room and board and I couldn't live at home. I had really no where to go. I decided to ask my grandma and grandpa if I could live with them while I commuted. They agreed to let me stay.
So after graduation (which my husband Russ happened to be at, coming to see kids in his youth group!), I went to Spain and France on a high school trip. It was amazing and I vowed to go back someday. The day I flew home, I came home to any empty house. My mom and stepdad and sisters had moved. All that was left were my things. I packed everything and moved that day to grandma's house in Parma, Ohio.
Graduated, 18 and kindof on my own. My new life was just beginning.
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